"It's the way I'm feeling, I just can't deny
But we've gotta let it go
We found love in a hopeless place"
Is it me, or do all these love ships just sink? I've gotten to the point where I don't know if I don't believe or if it's just that I don't trust. It's definitely one of the two. I think what did it for me was my last relationship-- high school/ "first real love" (I guess). I've learned that not everyone is there to stay in your life and that even people who you grow such a strong bond with, could leave your life at anytime. Love can only go so far... Even married couples tend to cheat on each other and the people you care about the most can just do the worst things.. It is so nice and lovely when everything is beginning and everyone is in that stage of "falling" for their loved one. But then things always get bumpy and usually just...well..they end.
I guess people really do find love in a hopeless place. I am yet to know one couple that has survived it all and if so, without all the hurt and pain along the way.I don't see the point in trusting and giving 100% to something that is probably not going to be there forever. I mean...it all seems so temporary. All the effort that people put into being with their partners for it to just go wrong. It's not even about the outcome.. It's about the connection that takes so long to build with people only for it to fall apart so drastically. I just want to avoid feeling the aftermath of what I fear can go so wrong.. I wonder if I'm afraid of losing people I grow so close to or if I just fear being at that low point in my life?
Even Justin Hall worked hard to maintain his relationship with the love of his life. He shut down his site, all of his videos, his entire life...he took a break from...to be with one girl. In the end, is it really worth to give it all up for what only seems temporary? I just don't know.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
To float or...to sink!
That awkward moment when your phone falls into the toilet (of clean water ofcourse) and you stick it in a bowl of rice for a couple of days? Yep, that sums up my life right now! So let's talk about how I am sitting next to the bowl of rice helplessly hoping for a miracle... For the first time ever, I actually might have ruined my cell phone which isn't even 4 months old. Yipee...
First of all, when it fell, I just thought about, "hmm what would my English class say about this one?!" Yup, as Turkle says, we have grown up tethered. I have so much time on my hands, without constant connection to all my friends, that it's not even funny. I almost don't even know what to do with myself. Today I reached for my pocket a couple of times only to be reminded of that fact that my cell phone is in a bowl of rice instead of actually functioning and ringing in my nice little pocket. Why in a bowl of rice? Well, though I have never heard of the idea, a whole bunch of people told me it works to dry up the phone so I said, "why the hell not try it?!" I'm going to need a miracle for this phone to work. 1) I need to talk to my friends, ESPECIALLY since I'm going home soon. 2) I don't have insurance on it (yay me!). 3) I am missing my distraction, alarm, calendar, and everything else I do on my phone. I feel so free that it's kind of weird. I'm not going to lie, I like this peaceful, quietness that I've had since yesterday. But I really do need to be in contact with people. I like hiding out for a bit but man, I kind of wish I didn't have to wait on emails to hear back from people. I must say, I've been much more punctual when it comes to meeting up with people and being at certain places.
Turkle would probably compare me to those people as she stated, wait for a distraction, "interruption" in their daily life. I guess in reality, I probably am just like them. I wait for little things to entertain me and take me to a different zone inside my head. I like being able to do something and in the meantime think of other stuff like creating a whole little world in my head. Maybe, I'm just being a little weird. I need to talk to my family back home and my friends there too. My cell phone is the safest way to stay connected and especially when I'm so far away. So let's keep crossing finger that it works!!
First of all, when it fell, I just thought about, "hmm what would my English class say about this one?!" Yup, as Turkle says, we have grown up tethered. I have so much time on my hands, without constant connection to all my friends, that it's not even funny. I almost don't even know what to do with myself. Today I reached for my pocket a couple of times only to be reminded of that fact that my cell phone is in a bowl of rice instead of actually functioning and ringing in my nice little pocket. Why in a bowl of rice? Well, though I have never heard of the idea, a whole bunch of people told me it works to dry up the phone so I said, "why the hell not try it?!" I'm going to need a miracle for this phone to work. 1) I need to talk to my friends, ESPECIALLY since I'm going home soon. 2) I don't have insurance on it (yay me!). 3) I am missing my distraction, alarm, calendar, and everything else I do on my phone. I feel so free that it's kind of weird. I'm not going to lie, I like this peaceful, quietness that I've had since yesterday. But I really do need to be in contact with people. I like hiding out for a bit but man, I kind of wish I didn't have to wait on emails to hear back from people. I must say, I've been much more punctual when it comes to meeting up with people and being at certain places.
Turkle would probably compare me to those people as she stated, wait for a distraction, "interruption" in their daily life. I guess in reality, I probably am just like them. I wait for little things to entertain me and take me to a different zone inside my head. I like being able to do something and in the meantime think of other stuff like creating a whole little world in my head. Maybe, I'm just being a little weird. I need to talk to my family back home and my friends there too. My cell phone is the safest way to stay connected and especially when I'm so far away. So let's keep crossing finger that it works!!
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